I CAN'T READ!

 

Why is it that it has taken me 5 hours to read, understand and take notes on 6 pages.

Is it because my intellectual capacity is limited? Because I feel like it sometimes - anything academic cannot be read and fully understood without having to read it a thousand times!!

I actually cannot read and it's scaring my because everything this year is so heavily dependent on me having to read things.

 

Oh my life...

 

 

Olola

x

Major Lazer - Get Free

 

I haven't posted in a long time. I certain will get back into posting, I've just been so busy lately and need to get organised my life organised.

I jusut wanted to share this song. I love it. It so soothing yet thought provoking at the same time.

It sort of represents how I'm feeling and have been feeling for a while.

I want to Get Free.

'I just want to dream'.

 

Olola

x

Daley - Those Who Wait

This song speaks to me. I relate to every word.

And it gives me hope at the same - so I wait, wait for things I cannot change or influence much to happen.

Good things.

So preocuupy myself with other people's problems and situations.

I'm in no rush for anything as I wait.

Olola 

x

Hardwork and Grafting

'Anything is possible.

It's just hard work and grafting.'

Mo Farah, London 2012 Olympics

After winning the 5,000m race and the 10,000m race the week before. What an amazing man!! He has been the highlight of my Olympics. I was screaming and shouting at the TV like a nutter and there were moments where I couldn't bear to watch as I thought he wouldn't make it. He showed that anything is possible if you put your mind to it. He's the happiest man in the world at the moment and he makes me so proud to be British!! Mo - These games will forever be remembered for your amazing talent!!

Friendship

'Friendship is a single soul dwelling in two bodies.'

Aristotle

'In everyone's life, at some time, our inner fire goes out. It is then burst into flame by an encounter with another human being. We should all be thankful for those people who rekindle the inner spirit.'

Albert Schweitzer

Sometimes, well most of the time, I feel like I don't have many friends. The truth is I don't really. Well not many true friends. I think what I have learnt about myself is that I tend to take a long time to truly open up to people to develop a true level of friendship and I am quite guarded. However what I have realised is that it is a two way thing - they've got to open up to me too. 

But I cherish the friends that I do have. One in particular is my best friend, Chris. We've known each other for over 12 years now. It's his 20th today and I thank him for understanding and for putting up with me and my flaws. He's the one person that I can let all my guards down with and can say that in his company I am truly me. I say the most random and stupid things, wear the most ridiculous things and embarrass myself and vice versa but in each other's company all that means nothing. We've had our ups and downs this year and have been through a lot as any friendship would but we know that in one way or another we'll always be there for one another. I'm ever so grateful for his presence in my life. I just hope that one day he finds someone to love him unconditionally without all the unnecessary lies, hurt, doubt and pain.

Happy birthday my love!

Olola

x

Beyonce - Flaws and All

I absolutely adore this video - the simplicity of it. Beyonce is one of my inspirations - the way she is so malleable and able to do everything she's ever dreamed of. I think that's amazing and I aspire to have such control and happiness in my life.

I believe I am a 'host of imperfections' - it's what makes me me but to have someone come into your life, accept you and your flaws and see you as a queen is amazing! I've always viewed love to be a lot about acceptance and understanding. But as much as I want to love and be loved in return - I think when the day comes the first thing I'll utter is how Beyonce simply puts it - 'I don't know why you love me'.

Olola

x

Beauty

I've recently been thinking a lot about beauty stuff. I'm really into natural beauty and as a dark girl feel like a lot things don't suit me so I tend to be sceptical about bright colours on my face or anything at all on my face. But I am slowly adjusting the idea of make up looking good one me - I just need a massive push to experiement with it. Yesterday I went to the Mac Cosmetics store in Covent Garden and tried on their liquid founation which was perfect for me. I was so scared about trying it on but my best friend wouldn't let me leave but the make up artist was so nice and wanted to know more about my skin and was happy wo help; she made me feel comfortable. Now I have found the perfect foundation - Mac Studio fix NW55. It is a bit expensive but it's worth it!!

Anyway here are a few girls that I have been in awe of due to their natural looking and flawless make up. I currently have Lanisha Cole and Lola Monroe - I think I'll start making uploading pictures of beautiful woman that inspire me a regualr thing.

They are simply stunning!!

Olola

x







20

I turned 20 the day before yesterday.

How do I feel? Happy!

Many people say they are not ready to not be a teen but I think that I just couldn't wait to get out of it. I spent so much of my teens, especially my late teens, being miserable and down about a lot of things. However it hasn't been so bad - academically I've achieved a lot (Passing my GCSEs, A-Levels and getting a high 2.1 in 2nd year), I've been able to learn a little bit more about myself and I've made some amazing friends.

But I am determined to make this decade the best ever - this is when I'll graduate, get my career on track, meet more people, travel a lot more, develop even more into a woman and maybe even meet someone special...

This is the first time that I've actually felt different - This is my decade to be bigger and better.

I am looking forward to taking it on.

Olola

x

Delilah - Inside My Love

I'm not usually a big fan of covers especially when I am a fan of the original but I love this.

Minnie Riperton's version is timeless but I think this version brings it a bit of British edginess to it.

I've always interpreted this song to be a very sexual.

You still get a sense of that in this:

Like really slow passionate sex.

Olola

x

Shuga

Based in Nairobi, Kenya, Shuga is a drama about 'sex, love and money'. These are a group of young african juggling studies, career ambitions and the general temptations of life with the everyday risk of HIV. I've enjoyed watching the two series so far and even though we are a world apart I can draw so many similarities between their world and mine.

If I remember correctly the image above is from the 4th episode of the 2nd season as they celebrate a birthday of one of the characters. This image I think captures elation - you forget where they are and that a few of them are HIV positive.

In this moment they are just a bunch of adults, that could be in any city in the world, happy.

I'd love to capture a moment like this in my life.

I really hope there's a third series.

Olola

x