Destiny

 

 

“The only person you are destined to become is the person you decide to be.”

 

 

 

Ralph Waldo Emerson

I am strong believer in self-determination. Yes, there are things that are out of our control due to external influences but I believe that we are in control of the majority of things. We have a choice. You decide who you are, you choose the path you walk down. You choose to Be Bigger and Better.  

 



Ed Sheeran - Give Me Love

This song sums up how I feel very often.

I am the cupid in this video in every way possible.

Just give me love...

 

Olola

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Daddy Issues

You call at dawn

And I don't understand why

You know I'm not awake

It's a ridiculous time.

You call

And I talk

Because I don't bear grudges

But you've really hurt me daddy

You've hurt me so much

You call

And I think 'why is this so formal?'

We talk as if we are avoiding everything

Because there's really nothing to avoid

You call

And hint at the fact that I haven't called you

But you are the one who left me

I am doing this on my own

All by myself. All on my own

I've worked so hard to get where I am

Yet I deny myself praise because I am nothing yet

I've taken so much on

But I don't complain

I keep it inside

Because outside it's a mess

And I don't need any help

You left me with it all

Your role and mine

That's why I am so messed up

Wise beyond my years

But all I want is Love in it's purist form

And not to have to take the lead

Not to have to care or think

I want someone to take care of me

But that will not happen

Because you've messed it all up

You wonder why I am not in touch

Well you're the one that left US

So you call

And I put on a brave voice

And pretend I'm alright

Because I have to be alright

For your sake and mine

You call

And I dry up

What I'm feeling doesn't count

Let's adhere to formalities

It's not long now

You call

I answer

While you question

We've been over this before

Apparently this is affection

You call

And fail to swallow your pride

You call

But time has widened the divide

You call

And I'm tired; you've messed up my life

But you call

And after all is said and done

We hang up.

Then I cry.

 

 

Olola (2012)

Butterfly Cupcakes

 

These were the first proper cupcakes I have made. I have reached the conclusion that I am not a fan of making cupcakes - I prefer big masterpieces; cupcakes require too much detail and are difficult to transport. Plus I need to figure out how to transfer equal amounts of mixture into cake cases without it massively over flowing when it rises. It comes with practice.

These butterfly cakes were made using 200g of butter, 200g of Caster sugar, 4 eggs, 200g of self raising flour and then for the butter cream topping: 160g of butter, 300g of icing sugar, 3 table spoons of milk, blue and red food colouring and mixed-fruit jam - then topped off with a sprinkle of icing sugar.

I made 24 in total but I reckon the mixture could easily have stretched to 30.

 

I think I will make muffins next - you don't have to worry about its prettiness. I've got two I'd like to try next - the classic chocolate chip muffin and the healthier banana and carrot muffin.

Can you spot any of mine?

 

 

Olola

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Holstee Manifesto

 

Wise, wise words.

 

Life is simple...Life is short.

This is your [my] Life

 

 

Olola

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I CAN'T READ!

 

Why is it that it has taken me 5 hours to read, understand and take notes on 6 pages.

Is it because my intellectual capacity is limited? Because I feel like it sometimes - anything academic cannot be read and fully understood without having to read it a thousand times!!

I actually cannot read and it's scaring my because everything this year is so heavily dependent on me having to read things.

 

Oh my life...

 

 

Olola

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Major Lazer - Get Free

 

I haven't posted in a long time. I certain will get back into posting, I've just been so busy lately and need to get organised my life organised.

I jusut wanted to share this song. I love it. It so soothing yet thought provoking at the same time.

It sort of represents how I'm feeling and have been feeling for a while.

I want to Get Free.

'I just want to dream'.

 

Olola

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Daley - Those Who Wait

This song speaks to me. I relate to every word.

And it gives me hope at the same - so I wait, wait for things I cannot change or influence much to happen.

Good things.

So preocuupy myself with other people's problems and situations.

I'm in no rush for anything as I wait.

Olola 

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Hardwork and Grafting

'Anything is possible.

It's just hard work and grafting.'

Mo Farah, London 2012 Olympics

After winning the 5,000m race and the 10,000m race the week before. What an amazing man!! He has been the highlight of my Olympics. I was screaming and shouting at the TV like a nutter and there were moments where I couldn't bear to watch as I thought he wouldn't make it. He showed that anything is possible if you put your mind to it. He's the happiest man in the world at the moment and he makes me so proud to be British!! Mo - These games will forever be remembered for your amazing talent!!

Friendship

'Friendship is a single soul dwelling in two bodies.'

Aristotle

'In everyone's life, at some time, our inner fire goes out. It is then burst into flame by an encounter with another human being. We should all be thankful for those people who rekindle the inner spirit.'

Albert Schweitzer

Sometimes, well most of the time, I feel like I don't have many friends. The truth is I don't really. Well not many true friends. I think what I have learnt about myself is that I tend to take a long time to truly open up to people to develop a true level of friendship and I am quite guarded. However what I have realised is that it is a two way thing - they've got to open up to me too. 

But I cherish the friends that I do have. One in particular is my best friend, Chris. We've known each other for over 12 years now. It's his 20th today and I thank him for understanding and for putting up with me and my flaws. He's the one person that I can let all my guards down with and can say that in his company I am truly me. I say the most random and stupid things, wear the most ridiculous things and embarrass myself and vice versa but in each other's company all that means nothing. We've had our ups and downs this year and have been through a lot as any friendship would but we know that in one way or another we'll always be there for one another. I'm ever so grateful for his presence in my life. I just hope that one day he finds someone to love him unconditionally without all the unnecessary lies, hurt, doubt and pain.

Happy birthday my love!

Olola

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