I'm Hungry/Hiatus

I've got great news.

I've been offered a place on the Teach First Leadership Development Programme! I'll be a maths teacher next year for two years given that I get a 2.1 or First in my degree. Coming from a struggling school and making it to top university - I have found that if it wasn't for my drive and determination then and my desire to be better, I wouldn't have made it. I believe that there are so many students who are in a similar position. A couple of weeks ago I was in a school for a couple of days and the level of some of the students' mathematical ability was shocking! I want to make a difference - when I was at school maths was one of my favourite subjects but a lot of people hated it. I want to pass on to students, who come from a similar inner city low socioeconomic background like myself, my passion for maths at KS3 and KS4 and also show them that you have the biggest say in your own destiny not other external barriers that you cannot control - you just need a little help sometimes.

I think I have rediscovered my thirst and hunger for success. The past couple of years has probably been my least ambitious and depressing. I have rarely stepped out of my comfort zone and I feel as though my life has been in complete stagnation. Unlike many people, I am someone who doesn't really care about what other people think about me but more about what I think about myself; I am my biggest critic. If I feel as though I have not been successful in my eyes then I am failure - Fullstop! I rarely give myself credit and think that I could always have done better. I think this is partly down to my upbringing. Being hard on myself is part of who I am and I don't think I'd want to change it but I think in order to feel like I am going somewhere in life I need to feel as though good changes are occurring and that I am becoming bigger and better. I have seen a couple of great opportunities that have been advertised for the summer which I'll apply for while I revise for the exams that I have got coming up over the next month and a bit. I have been blogging for about 4 months now and I can honestly say that I have been enjoying it (this is all a part of feeding my hunger and viewing my personal progress).

I'll be AWOL for the next month due to revision but I can't wait to continue on this journey when I get back.

Things will get bigger and better - I owe it to myself!

Olola

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